Why Amok?..

If you are really troubled by this matter, worried so to say by author’s psychic health and his adequacy (whatever could be there - childhood trauma, love unshared, and other similar things), then it will be very useful to investigate a short prehistory stated below.
Certainly, if you are not embarrassed at all by that or if you know me as a guy with no bats in his belfry, we are just passing by these lyrics, wiping our feet and going farther.

Explanatory note
Thus my name is Alex, by the passport - if somebody considers it more convenient – Aleksandrs. I was born in Yurmala, grew up, and, if you believe, still am growing up (becoming if not taller, then wider for sure) in town of Riga.
My serene youth coincided with the period of the “jolly” perestroika, when, having obtained the long-awaited education, I was for a long time still trying to find for me a place under the sun, without any success jerking myself firstly in one direction an then in other one. Just during this period, rubbing through my pants as a watchman at a gatekeeper’s office, I quite accidentally found some old worn book – a collection of stories by Stefan Zweig, where among others there was a quite splendid narration about a man, allegedly clever and educated specialist, having experienced something like a state which doctors call (or called) “AMOK”. I shall not go into detail of the story here, for, in my opinion, anybody interested may quite freely find it at a book-store, in the NET or - and I’m not afraid of the word – at a library, read it and make your own conclusions. In short, this is such a hard “l’amour toujours” having led to dimness of mind of the character of the story. I cannot say about other readers, but I personally was impressed by this story as hell. And how could that be any other way, such passions!..
But let’s not divert from the topic. These were the 90's, something was being ruined, something was appearing, Internet in particular, became available (Dial-Up - I’m recalling that with a shock). Due to this wonder, there appeared a possibility, using all kinds of MSN, ICQ и mIRC networks, to widen up the circle of one’s contacts up to unimaginable dimensions. Registering in a chat for the first time, I’ve chosen AMOK as a nick. Nothing more original came to my head at the moment, and anyway later AMOK would become my constant Network-name and gradually grow over to a some creative pseudonym used by me these days as well.
So, dear guest, there is no extravagance in this story, of which I’ve even gotten a written certificate;

But let us stick closer to the point.
I hope that after so many letters you won’t make up your mind suddenly that I wished to use those pages for an autobiographic novel, for the principal goal is nevertheless audio-visual creative working and not literary profession
So it happened that I passionately like photography and music, these are both hobby, passion, and work. It’s rather hard to divide them, and, by the way, I don’t have such a wish. For this reason there are supported in parallel both topical divisions, where time and again I add my new works or freshen topical information. What for? Hmmmm… A good question. May be just for that, for the sake of which you have looked here to?